Mood:Content
Song of Choice:"Maxwell Murders" by Rancid
Topic: I'm little

Hey You know I've been claiming 5' 8'' for the longest time when in actuallity I went and dulled out the yard stick and took a look. I'm actually 5' 6'' I laughed at that little run. I was like hmm I wonder what happened? Then well with no shoes I'm 5' 6'' so I guess with shoes I'm 5' 8'' it was kinda weird for me there. Funny oh yes because me I'm very proud of my height--because hey I may not have much but I'm somewhat tall.

Man that's odd lol but I'll be damned if I'm changing my side bar hell no. Most people see me I'll be standing my glorious 5' 8'' and thus I will not change it!

Man the last couple of days have been particularly angst ridden but you know I do what I can but it takes a little help. I'd rather not go into the labyrinth I just crawled out of So just yeah...I take the SAT tomorrow-scared? yes! Anywho Jonnell turned me toward a lady of the music she likes a lot so out of curiousity(much like Tool I gave it a listen)...It's a little group called My Ruin. Mostly angry girl music...her lyrics are okay for the like 5 songs I heard but the music to me is still a little grr I gotta get use to it you know
Well here's one song I really liked called Terror.
Terror
This is what you call me...
I STRIKE TERROR AMONG MEN
I can't be bothered with what they think
I bare my cross, my soul, MYSELF
I FORGIVE... BUT I NEVER FORGET
I've been put upon this earth in FEMALE form
But I can handle myself with the best of you
As well as THE WORST
And I often have
I have the right to remain silent
But I choose to SPEAK, SING, SCREAM
I am LIPS, HIPS, TITS... I AM THE POWER OF A WOMAN
STRONG like music
TRUE like friendship
But without my FRIENDS there would be no music... ONLY SPOKEN WORD
I am able to change
So I live without REGRET, without REMORSE only a REMIX
I am DRUNK, I am SOBER
HEAVEN doesn't want me and HELL'S AFRAID I'LL TAKE OVER
Don't bother trying to CENSOR me or SHUT ME UP
Because IT WON'T WORK
I am COLD and DISTANT yet WARM and CLOSE
To those who deserve to see that side of me
PART OF ME... THE HEART OF ME
You find ME so hard to understand in YOUR WORLD
The world you perceive to be so NORMAL
I AM DEFORMED... SCORNED, REBORN
I am ME
And I know exactly WHO I AM, WHAT I AM and THE WRATH I BRING
The UGLY BEAUTY, the LYING TRUTH, the VIRGIN WHORE... the QUIET STORM
A LOVER, a FIGHTER, a SAINT, a SINNER, a SISTER, a DAUGHTER
OLD SCHOOL...... a BEGINNER
I have decorated myself with LOVE, HATE, TRUTH.... YOU
All of you, BOTH OF YOU, none of you... more than one of you
With LIPS LIKE SUGAR, EYES LIKE MEAT
I've watched MEN come, go and CHEAT
I SLEEP to DREAM and DREAM of SLEEP
I HAD A DREAM JOE
That you were standing in the middle of an open road
I HAD A DREAM JOE
That your hands were raised up to the sky
And your MOUTH WAS COVERED IN FOAM
I've been CRUCIFIED, JUSTIFIED and MORTIFIED by my behaviour
Both FEMININE and MASCULINE I am a CONTRADICTION and JUXTAPOSITION
My RELIEF is my RELEASE and only time will tell
ALL'S WELL that ENDS WELL
I am UNSWEETENED, UNCLEAN.... Been called DRAMA QUEEN
EX GIRLFRIEND, EX MEMBER... the TANTRUM, the TEMPER
I point my finger... TAKE THE BLAME
And this time I WILL OWN THE NAME
Because NOBODY is going to RUIN ME, if I have to I will RUIN MYSELF..
And it will be 'MY RUIN'

Yeah for some reason...I was watching my trustly tape of the Witchblade last night when listening to this song and it fit Sara perfectly...anyway...um let's see on that subject of Witchblade Danny Woo was on a freakin Miriah Carey video. He's really cool in the video...but now I have to kill her. Cause he's got so much skill and talent he should be making a marial arts movie not...cameoing on a freakin music video...well yeah in honesty I taped it to watch Danny Woo at my lesiure :) oh boy anywho I gotta figure out what I'm going to do about today it's like -18 outside...no warm clothes...this is gonna pose a problem...oh well so yes I'll see you guys later bye!